[Monica1]

We misplaced our faith and asked god for a big win. I also when I got into complete self destruct mode throwing away thousands used it as a mechanism ie if god cared he would save me from total destruction. Well he did save me from total destruction just not in the way I would have wanted! I had to do a lot of work and work through a lot of mental, emotional and physical pain in the first I would say 9 months of recovery. I had a long drawn out rock bottom just so I really got the message.