I was interested to read on another thread, Monica that the visual images faded when you attended GA.
My mind was flooded with those images when I was in the throes of gambling. Most of my non gambling time was spent “dry gambling”. I would withdraw, deliberately, to an inner space for hours on end and even in my dreams, I would visualize my hand placing a note in the slot; then the amount of credit would be displayed and I would set the machine (in my mind)on MAX bets and off I would go for hours and hours, silently feeding my bad habit.
Those visual images always preceded a gambling binge.
I have trained my mind NEVER to dwell on such nonsense but what do you know, out of the blue, one night last week I was held up in city traffic just outside a casino I had the misfortune to frequent on many occasions. Suddenly a flashback came before my mind’s eye and I began to figure what each “image” was worth. I won’t use the exact “terms” in case it tempts or haunts another Cg but I can honestly say, I could not remember the “value” of each line of symbols. I didn’t rack my brain for any more than a second, because I know too well where “stinkin’ thinkin’ leads me. I wonder has my attendance at GA wiped the memory slate clean? In all the groups I attend (about 7 different venues) the person doing the chair selects passages from the “Red Book” and members read, in turn. More often than not , it goes over my head but subconsciously messages seep in . I know this because when I read posts here or when I hear or think of gambling, an answer from that literature flashes to mind.
Strange how the human brain works, isn’t it.
“Just for today, I will not be a mental loafer”!
I hope you enjoyed the “stolen” curry.
They say “what’s seldom , is wonderful”.
Reading about your sparse food intake makes me feel guilty. It also makes me realize I eat FAR too much.
