[lizbeth4]

Velvet, Thank you for your post! It opened my eyes! I guess I’m not worthy of good things because I’ve messed up so many times. I’ve let this addiction get the best of me. I knew the damage it was causing and I continued to enable it to try and destroy me. I was so weak!!! I am really trying this time with my recovery. I’m going to GA and counseling. Mount Rushmore may be only a dream but I need something to look forward to. Recovery is hard and sometimes a lonely place. I think my emotions are getting the best of me!!! Today while doing yard work, i had humming birds flying around me. They are attracted to the trumpet vines. They made me feel happy!!