STILL GAMBLE FREE.. since January, its been such a strange time, I feel a little lost but I am becoming more curious about life outside my gambling bubble, I don’t remember everyday life being this hard, but its eye opening. I have found my voice, I have found a little strength and I am enjoying getting to know my little girl again..
What I struggle most with is letting go of the past, I have sworn I won’t let my past keep holding me back, but when I look around me sometimes, it stings a lot when I think of the people I have hurt, I know I am never going to be able to bury it completely, I would like to be able to live with it, rather than it live in me.. catch 22.. I am happier than I have been in years, still think about gambling but don’t see the need to do it like I did..
will I ever be 100% happy again.. I bloody hope so
