Hi Jappy
Thank you for replying to me last night.
I really needed someone who understood what it is like to be a CG to reply to my post and I am so glad that you did. I just wasn’t really in the mood to discuss it last night.
So here is an update on my situation.
This morning I was struggling with my urges so I came on here and spoke to someone on the helpline which was a God send.
Today I paid my bills etc from my account, transferred the rest to hubbys account and closed down my bank account.
I have also got in touch with work etc to make sure all future payments are put into hubbys account.
It was with great pleasure that I took a pair of scissors and cut my bank card in half.
Hard but satisfying.
I now dont have any control over finances so that should make my recovery a little easier.
I also went to mums to discuss how I was feeling and to see her cry because I hadn’t gambled and I had done the right (but hard) thing was lovely.
Not because she was crying but because she was proud.
Today I did not gamble and tomorrow I will not either.
Thank you for taking the time to read my posts.
Lots of love xxx