Two thoughts I had about your post.
n1) The “should I shouldn’t I” dance that goes on inside our heads when we are considering a gamble – became a warning for me. I used it as a sign that I needed to double down on my recovery, because although I might be strong the first few times it happens – I know (from past experience) that the “play” side will win.
n2) That you have identified a trigger. Seeing scratch cards is a link to gambling for you and one you could try to avoid. I know that is not easy, but could you get your cigarettes from a machine which has no cards around – or do you know an outlet where cards are not on view near the ciggys? Not easy I know – but then whoever said that recovery would be easy. I wish you well.
