I am not doing too bad because really I have the money to pay my rent and utilities. But i only have 30$ left for a week… then i have bills and when i do get paid i wont have more than a 100$ left to eat… I put myself i amvery bad situstion.
I self excluded from my favorite casinos – you know the ones that we go to get our “money back” – like i am a stupid idiot for thinking or participating in that activity… gambling to get my money baxck because I am desparate
No – i dont have anyone to help with finances i am here for 24 y in this country without my mother … i do talk to jer and she can not help but just talk to me when i need to talk because she knows i gambled. I do feel i dissapoint her majorly every time i gamble – even if it’s 2 time in 3 months … It’s bc i gamble $500 i collected or more – its not just some change. I used to gamble more a lomg time agi but stopped with thee more – maybe bc i ran out of $$.
I worked from 9 am til 7 today and thinking about not having any sabvimgs and 2 maxed out credit cards – made me dry for a while in my car. But I am trying my best