So I haven’t been on in a few days – guess why?
Yup you guessed right I gambled today!
I wasn’t even going to come on here and tell you all but then where does that leave me with regards to recovery?
I can’t pretend that it didn’t happen.
I am back in that place where you feel horrible, you’re a failure and just generally a bad person.
I have been honest with my husband though.
I know you are going to ask me how I did it and here’s how –
I have everything changed into hubby’s account but in a rush and a panic this morning he left his bank card behind and temptation got too much 🙁
I didn’t gamble loads, I know that it isn’t the point, the point is that I DID gamble.
I was able to withdraw a small amount though that I haven’t been able to bring myself to do in a long time, again that isn’t the point.
To be honest this has left me feeling like total cr*p!
I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to be this person anymore.
Hubby’s card has now been cut in half and a new one ordered (which will be delivered to his mums).
I can’t and don’t want to do this anymore.
Anyways thanks if you have taken the time to read my post.
I feel like I have let everyone down 🙁
Tomorrow is a new day and a new day 1.
