[butchugly]

I don’t want to gamble today. I hope I feel like that this evening. as soon as I get the urge. I will post on here. my thought process. maybe someone can tell me what to do with it. I know i need to narrow down..the turning point. what it is and why. I know i won’t be able to stop unless I figure this out. I am off work tomorrow. then working 13 hour shifts until friday. so i will be fine on those day. its just when i am not working is when there is a problem. so if anyone comments on this in the week. it may not be until friday before i reply. depends when i get a chance. I really want to get to the point where I say day 90.