Today I went grocery shopping – I didn’t go to my usual bargain supermarket and check for reduced food .
Today I bought expensive food – and today I got the real taste of delicious food – it was so good – I cannot believe the difference .
Today I bought good food because I am never depriving myself or my family again. Today I bought good food because I have the money I didn’t gamble .
Today I also have had crazy urges .
The are bouncing around my head like a ping pong ball – From Website to casino to lottery – from win to riches to how generous I can be.
The impatience is starting again – a new kitchen later this year or a new kitchen now – I could win the money – my brain has tricked me too often – today I will wait!
Today I have been burned often enough to know what the outcome will be .
So why do the urges keep coming ?