I realised that the culture I work in is old fashioned and a bit hierarchical. I knew it was stepping backwards in time when I took the job and I have to wonder why. For the money that’s why! have been wracked with guilt for no good reason about saying to my bosses that I can’t relyon a colleague who strolls in very late and just tells me he is taking days off without asking, just taking and leaving me on my own. They have given me some extra support as I have been on my own when there is meant to be four people. Normally I wouldn’t rat on a colleague but I have been his boss before in another job and found him quite awkward then and I know he struggles,with me trying to get one up all the time. Not a team player at all. I don’t play games, I find them tedious. I still felt awful about,doing this as I wouldn’t normally take this action. I realised I had become over involved in trying to make things better in an environment that is less than. The office is very cold and I had to,wear a coat this week until someone lent me a fire today. I think that I need to become detached and less involved and wonder why I am putting up with it all. I have had to give up my writing,class, no additional energy for anything extra, but she is sending me the homework which I say I will pick,up,with when I hve the time and register for the next course, I am disappointed but I know that I have to change to a better work life balance when this job is over.
