I’ve woken feeling good. Woke up at 6.00am not feeling as depressed and groggy. Have just spent the last hour reading through other members stories and progress. Although our stories are different, the similar GA aspects are all to familiar. Your shared stories have given me renewed hope that there is a life free of GA in action. As I Reflect on my own life, I see a pattern lacking is self care and indulgence in drugs (when younger) alcohol and food. It seems to me that I almost don’t have a regulation switch and have over indulged and invested in many things in my life that have not been healthy. A few days ago a my lowest point after having drunk 4 glasses of wine and feeling like shite all the following day, I think the wine may have been off, that made me feel so ill??? This definitly has put me off drinking for now. tomorrow is D day when I plan to spill the beans to my partner, please may I have the strength to follow through. What might happen is that he will drive off for a few hours to process what I’ve told him. I hate it when he retreats like this but also know it may be his way of thinking things through. If this occurs, don’t know what I’ll do. Need to go to the beach or gardening….dreading Christmas as there will be no presents for anyone this year. How do I explain this to everyone??? I know that the advice is to come clean with my family but as mentioned earlier, elderly parents and brother and sister have made it ctystal clear that they would not help me again if I indulged in gambling again. This was four yrs ago and I couldn’t bare to have them wash their hands of me for good…..
