Hi Vera,
Thank you for your truthfulness and honesty. Your post has been very important to another person such as me trying to stay stop. It has strengthen my trust and belief in recovery. You let me feel that I am not alone in this journey.
I have learnt to focus and look at the progress made and not at the imperfection in recovery.
I do not want to look backward and I do not wish to look forward, I only focus on TODAY. It was already a huge victory won for each day not gambling.
One day at a time staying stop is more manageable and achievable, it encourages and motivate me to try again tomorrow. I remain hopeful that I can stay stop for one day call today.
The little success each day staying stop offer me hope for the future and I shall keep on trying until my last breathe.