I have just had an interesting talk in the group i just attended. It made me realized i am not doing enuf for my recovery. I keep saying i need to do this and that. But i rarely do. So i am starting by posting in here. I been working on my depression partly due to my gambling. It has been hard. whenever gets hard i want to escape to a safe place so i dont have to deal with ti. (inpatient place). But this time i am working on it with gambling counselor, psychiatrist and friends at g.a. Sometimes i feel like i was destined to be miserable forever. Like my heart was shattered in a million pieces and it can never be put back together again. other days i feel like it can be done. Today is a day of feeling like i can. So i am gonna call my sponsor later today and hopefully do some journaling and maybe make a call to my very best friend in g.a. He was the first one i met and we still see each other regularly at meetings. Been lazy at calling him too.l
Well posting here is a start. i usually end every group i attend with i will post in my journal and this time i did
