Hi I did it
Thank you good advice
The pokies started to get a hold of me in 2009
When my relationship with my ex became a little miserable and dissapointing
I wanted to move and she didn’t
In the end we moved and things weren’t going to bad
Had money and a pretty good job
Then in 2011 I lost a sister
She was my best friend
I dealt with it by completely self destructing
12 months I drank and gambled every day and I really didn’t want to go home to the wife
My fault not hers
I left her in 2012 and since then its taken till now to get to the stage where I want to be well
I just cant go on like this anymore
In the meantime I have tried ga meetings counseling and self exclusion
Its my thoughts that I need to change
One of the thoughts I have often is loneliness doesn’t work for me
Ive got into relationships I shouldn’t have because of this feeling and have ended up feeling more miserable than I was
Im not making that mistake anymore
So today I am thinking
Get myself right
Change my thoughts and my behavior
If I can get my life back on track
Maybe then I will be ready to find someone
Until then I aim no catch
This site and everyone’s responses ,stories and the poems are helping like nothing else ever has
Thank you so much for caring