Things have calmed down a bit. He hasn’t asked for money, although found 10 in my phone case on Sunday. It was a big disappointment that I left it laying around. Anyway I am happy I managed not to give him money for whole week. Despite all the troubles he gave me I stayed strong and I’m tried of this but glad. Now I can’t stop thinking about next time he asks for money. I constantly think and arrange plan in my head what to say and how to act. I have to be prepared in any occasion. I’m tired of this. I know if I relax too much with not thinking about it he will easily ‘eat me’. I am literally waiting for his next move. I just can’t stop thinking of what will happen. Now I know how extremely hard it is to get out of this and think about yourself. He started talking to me about normal things, everyday usual stuff. Is this his plan to make me get closer to him again, or is he trying to get normal and maybe don’t gamble? Am I very naive to think he wants to stop? I really don’t want to be a detective but how do you stop thinking non stop about it
