I have very little coping skills!! When things don’t go perfectly in my life, I gamble. When I don’t feel validated, I gamble. That’s why I gamble. It could well be drinking, drugs, ect. But I chose gambling! Feeling validated is a big one for me! I had a crappy childhood whete I had to stuff my real feelings as I would be belittled and demeaned for having emotions. I was often told how weak I was as a little girl. I’ve never gotten over that and still twinge when my Mother continues to repeat the behaviors. It makes me very unhappy and the hurt and abandonment feelings resurface. I’m going to counseling to deal with these issues. It takes a lot to relearn and know and trust yourself and to believe that you have value.
