Dear diary
Hunger for more money
When I have a shortfall and need more money or when I start to fear and want more money, gambling thought will suddenly appear and cross my mind.
I cannot afford to be over-confident, proud, ignorant and careless, I need to work hard to be mindful and remain vigilant everyday. When I become complacent, I would get myself into trouble because I continue to be vulnerable to mood altering substances and behaviors.
“Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.
Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. “