[jen3]

The start of day one, week two. What a roller coaster. I am determined to do whatever it takes to keep myself from gambling yet it’s so hard to imagine a life without it. My brain references the few good things yet deep down inside I know thier are no good things when it comes to gambling, at least not for someone who has no control over it. Those days ended many years ago. I have to slow down take it a day at a time and not get so ahead of myself. I hate that this addiction has consumed so much of my life. I just hate it.