Thanks Vera for your post. It is always good hearing from you. Mine and my Mother’s relationship is so complicated. I am trying to work through it and sort it out and let things go as I don’t want any regrets when she is gone. I always feel like she has a motive for everything she does. I guess I don’t feel like she is genuine. So, it is hard for me to ask her for anything. I always felt like I was bothering her even when I was a child and depended on her. As for my Daughter’s and Grandson, they are the loves of my life. I would do almost anything for them. I receive so much love and joy from them. I am in contact with my youngest Daughter and even though her situation makes my heart hurt, I know her recovery is in her hands. One day at a time!! I felt well enough to go down to my Mother’s for about 2 hours to visit. My cousin is on her way here to stay with my Mom for 2 days. My Mother said they were going to the casino and asked if I wanted to come. See Vera, this is another reason that there is no trust there. She keeps throwing gambling in my face. Who does that?? Especially when she knows that I have a problem. I told her no! I am home now and I am going to do a little cleaning. I am picking up my Grandson on Thursday and I am planning a few day trips for us. I know that I can only change myself. I tolerate a lot of my Mother’s actions as she is my only living parent and I guess I am from the old school in that I believe that you should respect your parents. It doesn’t mean that I can’t disagree and I am getting better at distancing myself when she is out of control and hurtful. It is complicated!!! I am doing what is the best for me. I think that is a big step within itself!!
