Always good to hear from you on my thread Vera. I have felt nauseous most of today but did not stop me from posting on the interesting topic on Idis thread. I know that today I have a number of things to do and I did t feel at all like doing them. Pete on my waking was very moany take the plates out of your bedroom, don’t let the dog in your bedroom, etc. He bought me a cheesy roll with grilled cheese in it. That was yummy. He is now out probably until the wee hours of the morning.
I start doing the things to prepare for the visit to my daughters tomorrow like washing my clothes in fairy liquid. Lol.
I notice I have two missed calls from my son, Ben. I ring him and we have a very good discussion. He has been with his girlfriend for a year and wants to take me to one of my favourite restaurants tomorrow on my birthday, which I am sure geordie will know, which is Joanna’s, and meet his girlfriend who is a labour activist. I somehow feel we will get on! He has shown her the film. He says that all I had to do was ask when I needed help, I knew this was all I had to do, but really find it difficultas he does. He agrees with me tha now is not the time to wallow in old past emotions and just get stuck. Now is the time to move forward. And he reminds me that I dug this hole for myself. I said I knew that but all the advice is that relatives f and f should not keep reminding us of this. Or maybe they should, to keep us focussed on the recovery journey. I don’t know. I tell him what has been goi g on for me and say I am going to my daughters to look at options for the future. He offers me 100 pounds for my mobile phone and internet which are due and I have not the funds. I am pleased we have had this conversation and we will meet up when I am back from my daughters for dinner and to meet his girlfriend. I also tell him how bad I feel every year going to my sisters and mums for Xmasand the emotional blackmail I have to go. He says it is what it is and I don’t think it bothers him that much. That part of the family does t know my part of the family, the y have met only once or twice and there is resistance on both sides from my children to meet and get to know their rand other. She has never met her great grandkids. It just is what it is. Perhaps that will change one day. We can live in hope. But I am grateful for the call. I also talked about the new year, that I cannot ask Pete to leave now but will in the New Year.