** thanks P – Sad and others for comments **
Did not give into urges yesterday. Had a few thoughts today but didn’t act of them. Feeling financial strain again after 2 weeks of not really worrying when was away. Managed to stall a nasty debt until next week but pressure on to earn that money in the next 7 days.
Have spent nothing in the shops apart from milk. I am going on a mega tight budget. Eating base food. I have some money but need every penny for the rent. I wont starve. Loneliness crept in again. Got this damnn woman I speak to. We supposed to be meeting a week Sunday. But I am having doubts. I am maybe just not into that situation right now.
Thinking again strongly about my next move – relocation. New start. Get the money together. Dump all my junk and walk!