[lizbeth4]

Thanks p for your post! I haven’t been gamble free. I gambled today, big time! I’ve done damage both monetary and to myself. Can’t believe it!!!! I’m so hating myself right now. I’ll be digging out of this one for awhile. Things were moving along and I decided to screw it all up. I’m feeling empty, despair and failure. If people that knew me really knew the real me, they would be shocked. I wonder how many of them would want any kind of relationship with me. I feel pathetic and useless. I don’t why I keep sabotaging my life. Will I ever be free of this demon? I’m drained, so tired.