Thanks Kpat Sad and Vera for your reply’s I do read them all!
No gambling – and if it had not been for the bump the week would have gone easier emotionally. Managed to buy some days on “nasty” debts and clearing remainder of my rent tonight when my next money arrives. Then its into Feb.
Am out early Sunday. Used some free train vouchers Ii was given by the rail company as I got caught on Boxing day with delays. So it will be a cheap day to see this girl I met a while back. It all falls to bits though if for some reason my funds dont arrive tonight. I say that cause it shows just how close to the line we can live daily. And it is so tiring!
I feel strong in that I wont gamble. Im in the phase at the moment where I know I wont. But been in this phase many times before. Its the other periods and phases that are the worry. Somehow though I sense things are changing on a number of fronts and I say with caution these could be changes for the better finally.