In the past I have gambled “within my means” while my wife was present. My problem is I liked to sneak and gamble willy nilly, and she was never aware what we I was losing. After she and I had sought counseling, it was agreed that it was best if I stayed away from it all together. I have concurred, and as of this writing I have been “clean”. I won’t lie, I am a little scared to play again, because I don’t want to “blow up” again…. but a small part of me is bitter that it has to be this way. I am sorry that you went back, but I applaud you for the time you stayed away, because you have proven (especially to yourself) that you can do it. A slip in temptation will happen, and I am certain that the majority of CG relapse at some point.
I remember the days where I have hated myself for what I have done, but I don’t think it is fair for me or anybody to judge others if they have a slip. What I want to do is take the positive out of it, that we all recognize what is wrong, and are trying….if it fails, the guess what…we try again! It is never to late to stop, and someday, hopefully we stop for good!
Thanks for the kind words, I appreciate the time you have afforded me on this site!