Thanks Ican for your post. I hurt a lot of people when I gambled. I mostly hurt myself as it changed me a lot and not in good ways. I did things and treated the people that I loved horridly. I have told the people that I hurt that I am sorry. My oldest Daughter apologized to me while she was in recovery. She gave me her butterfly pin she received at her outpatient ceremony. That pin is very sacred to me!! My youngest Daughter emailed me yesterday. She has been very depressed and hasn’t wanted to talk to anyone. She doesn’t even know or recognize the concern and pain she caused when she disappeared. Using drugs isn’t helping her depression. I am going to try to see her soon so I can put my arms around her and tell her how much I love her. I can’t changed her, she needs to want to change herself. I can only give her my love and let her know that I am here for her. My Grandson slept for 14 hours last night and woke feeling 98 percent better (according to him). I met my Daughter half way and took him to her. He was able to play his final game in the baseball playoffs and my Daughter called to tell me that his team won. I think he was missing his Mommy also as he has been with me for 6 days. Most of that time he was sick. I am almost at 100 percent. I am going to spend the new few days working in the yard pulling weeds and raking. I love the outdoors and admiring my yard when I am all done.
