Thanks for your post Liz and we never know what challenges people are facing. I find that I appreciate the support that I receive at GT. I went for my counselling appointment on Friday and I am glad that I went. I am going back next week and I am looking forward to going. I found it interesting when I started talking that what came up was the fact that next month it is two years since my grandson was stillborn. I did not realize how it was on my mind. I have been having lots of thoughts about gambling lately and I am sure that is part of the reason. I was driving home from work today and I started thinking it would be wonderful to go to the casino to have some fun, to relax and just escape from everything. I got my mind away from it, but the longing of being able to go somewhere and spend the day and hide from everything keeps coming. I know that playing those machines is not the answer, but it does not stop me wanting it. It makes me aware that I have to be very careful right now when I am having those thoughts and urges. I know that for me if I went once then it would be the same old story having to fight tooth and nail to stay away, the gambling hangover, losing money, the guilt, the remorse, hating myself. It is one day at a time. I just thank God that I did not act on my thoughts and urges. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
