Thanks for your post Harry. What I meant is that I will always live with the mistakes, but I want to see them in a psoitoive way. This is all about me becoming a better person, so hopefully in 6 months, 1 year, 2 years I can look back and say, that I gained from this.
I think I have alwasy been immature, not thinking about others needs. That has to stop. What does my wife and child need most of all, and that is a man who is unafraid. A man who can tale life’s ups and down without resorting to escapsim. And the gambling became escapsim. An obsession. I think it is a long time since I believed I could win money because as long as I gamble, I will lose. It is so true that only by not gambling can you win.
When my wife said to me 3 years ago I would lose everything bacause I had an addicted personality I was way to arrogant to listen. Now I am humle and will work on this every day. And on that note, back to work and no more regrets.
Thanks mate. And love to all, god speed all our recoveries.