Thanks for the post Vera. I am thrilled to hear that you have not been gambling. I always remember you in my prayers. Did you really sell your car? If you did and it is helping keep you away from gambling then it is worth it. I am sure that you miss your car and the independence it gave you, although is going to the Casino really independence. It is better to have no car and not gamble!!! I know that I have to be careful right now in regards to playing machines I just feel it and know it. It is not because hubby had a few beers it’s just stress, emotions and wanting to run away from everything right now. I know though that this will pass!!! Gambling would make it worse!!!
There is an event that I am meant to go to on Friday for work and it is being held in a function room at a Casino. I went last year, but I have decided that I am not going this year. You have to walk through the area will all those machines to get to the meeting room area!!!! I don’t feel strong enough right now so I will have a couple of staff go. I am getting better at delegating LOL I am also getting better at realizing that I am at a point where I have to be careful.
I went shopping after work last night and boy was that depressing. I tried on some outfits for work, but did not buy a thing. Would you believe that I looked terrible in everyone of them. Why can I not go shopping and buy clothes that make me look 50lb lighter LOL It is a reality check when you go shopping and you need the bigger size and you look in the mirror and you can’t believe what you are seeing. I know that I am the only one that can do something about it. Why could I not be a procrastinator about eating…. funny how that works where we procrastinate about doing things we need to do, but not about the things we don’t need to do, like eating the lovely desserts.
I am rambling away here, but it is just one of those days where I need to change my attitude. I think I need to go back to bed and get out of the other side LOL
I need to change my outlook today and remember to count my blessings and think of the many things that I have to be grateful for.
I will take it one day at a time. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can (losing weight) and the wisdom to know the difference. Wishing everyone a gamble free day!!!!