[Jezi]

Thanks for commenting. I’ll definitly join a group session when i can. I would love to tell someone close about my problem but i’m not there yet. I’m afraid it would lead to more anxiety and leave me feeling ashamed of myself- which i already am. It’s tough to do this alone, thats for sure. But i am ready to leave my gambling life behind, i dont want to live like a compulsive gambler anymore. I just want to feel free and not have to think about gambling every day. 

Also i think youre right about thoughts of suicide often resembels the wish to stop gambling. Good to hear im not the only one whos had these thoughts. It just got very overwhelming last summer.