Thanks everyone for your support! I heard early this morning that my daughter was at one of her friend’s house. The person telling me this missed her by 5 mins. So she is alive!!! I am relieved that she is alive, but confused as to why she isn’t communicating with me and other family members and why she disappeared for days. Something isn’t right!! She is almost in a paranoid state. I know that she is messing with some bad drugs and that is concerning. In my mind, I sent her the biggest hug. I know at some point that she will contact me. Yesterday a young woman’s body was found in the city and I was overwhelmed with fear. I couldn’t find the courage to all the police and see if it was my daughter. My oldest daughter made the call and we found out it wasn’t her. Addiction is such a monster. It takes a person and makes them do things that they thought they would never do. My family is full of addicts, gamblers, alcoholics, drug users. It is so sad! My oldest daughter fought addiction and has been clean for 18 months now. She goes to support groups and counseling as she knows that relapse can happen anytime. I have watched her struggle but stay clean and turn her life around. She has a beautiful son, a terrific job, and many friends who cherish her. She told me yesterday that she was there for me whatever the outcome with her sister. She told me that she was so sorry for being a selfish addict and that she could never comprehend how horrible it was for me, her mother. She asked me to forgive her and that she loved me. That brought me to tears. She and I have gone full circle. Good news: the fire that is burning about 40 miles from me is almost contained. My grandson woke up not feeling well. A virus was going through his classroom and a lot of the kids missed the last few days of school. So, he is resting and grandma is taking good care of him!!!
