Thanks everyone for your posts!!! I didn’t listen to anyone’s advice and I went on a gambling binge-11 hours! Fortunately, I only spent $300 in that time period. But it was money I couldn’t afford to lose. When I got paid today, I paid some bills, did errands, sent money to my Daughter and proceeded to gamble. I didn’t ban myself again from my local casino. The ban had recently lifted. Bad move! So, i will be late on bills and make up lies to cover my gambling. I’m on the edge of causing irreversible damage. It’s almost like I want to destroy myself. I’m just sick over this and burning up because I have no air conditioning. Hopefully that will be fixed tomorrow. I’m picking myself up again. Tomorrow, I re-ban myself! I’m praying that I can get through this. I thought about taking a lot of pills and ending my misery. But then I thought of my Grandkids and I don’t want to do that to them. Lord, help me to be strong and move forward and get through this.
