Thanks Claire!! As I said, he is seeing a doctor but doesnt take meds and dont think he is even telling the truth to the doc. When he met the doc past wednesday, he got a new prescription, he took it ony two evenings.
He went to Casino, late Friday afternoon and at 9:30 PM( by then i am sure he must have had enough drinks), he texts and says, thats how he is going to be and I can leave if I want to and some other crap and came home at 3:30. All day yesterday and today he has been sleeping. I am so heart broken ( my kids are out of town and my 17 year old texts me every evening asking if Dad is OK and if he is coming home on time and I have been lying to her stating everything is OK.:(( ). To the outside world he is best husband, best dad and smart man. Only I know ( partially my daughter) knows whats happening. Even with all these… we do lot of vacations and try to do things when is sober.
The more I think, confrontation will not help as he will find different ways and on top he will blame me for not trusting him and spying on him. Ater all this for so many years, he still expects me to support him and trust him ( which i do some day or the other he will change)
Day by day i am losing hopes and sometimes I feel like walking out and unfortunately I am not working now to support myself.
I didnt talk to him from past 36 hrs. I am at the verge of crying if ayone even calls me. I am not even taking calls. This morning I get a text like this from my husband and these kind are not new to me.
“past week was one of the best week I had in a long time. I am hoping to continue and only get better from now.
I know I shouldn’y have gone on Friday, but please dont give ip. I know you were very happy past week, and I liked it so much. I will keep trying to get you in that mood all the time, not just for a week.”
These things happen only when he is sober and not gambling. I didnt respond and I dont even know what to say. I am clueless.
I am pretty sure, he must have lost quite a bit of moey and I dont have guts to ask him either as he will come back and say its his money and he can do what he wants.