Thanks Cat for the post. My Mom is a strange one. There is no deep ties between us. She checked out a long time ago. Our relationship is very superfical. I was asked by a friend, whom is a very wise person, if I loved my Mom. Of course I said. Then she asked if I could accept her for who she is? That is what I have been working on. Today for example, when she talked about the casino, I would have been very hurt in the past by her throwing that in my face. I wasn’t even mad about it. She just put the gambling bug in me. I didn’t gamble and I was able to get the urges out of my head. I watered and pulled weeds in my back yard!!!! I think that counseling has helped me deal with our relationship also. There might come a time when I seek help again. It is good for me also to be able to talk to someone and let it all out!!! I am looking forward to having my Grandson for part of the summer and he does make me feel happy. But I am looking forward to having some time for my own interests and I have a lot of things that I want to do around here. I am learning that it’s alright for me to make me happy and putting myself first sometimes. I am getting there!!
