Thanks for your reply Charles.
He called today as expected. I didn’t pick up. He left a message pleading with me to call him. Old tactics from an old flame I guess. I replied with a text telling him we had nothing to talk about. I assured him the house would not be vandalized and would be returned in the same if not better condition than it was when she moved in. After that I slipped into a little insulin reaction. It is funny how stress affects the body. The fight flight reaction is a funny thing too as I want to cry and punch something at the same time. I do need to get my *ss to a meeting where I can vent face to face. The urge to gamble is strong-stronger than it had been in a long time. I was plotting how I could get cash to gamble only to realize that I am flat broke at the moment and had to ask myself if I really wanted to gamble away the mortgage money. Even with a foggy mind I know that as a CG there is no “win”-only more heart ache and pain and worry-none of which I need right now.
bettie
