Thank you Vera. I woke this morning with a sense of dread, I need to face this man today and I’m nervous. While I know I’ve made the right decision I don’t want to see him. I feel physically ill. I want to get it over with.
On a better note, I also woke this morning knowing that today, 5 years ago was the first day of my recovery. The first day of a gamble free life (one day at a time of course)
I sometimes wonder if I have done this the right way, that I have done everything possible to ensure I am safe. I guess it’s worked so far. Without the support I have received here though, it may have been a different story. To everyone I have met along the way I am grateful. I also know that the monster is waiting, will always be waiting. I need to do my exclusion again, that’s my best defence. Stay aware, never let my guard down.
A day of mixed emotions today. Another day gamble free.
Love K xxxxx
