Thank you velvet.
I’m back to my house. There were the most exhausted days of my life. So many feelings, thoughts, doubts, hopes. We have agreed to many things and the main one is that he needs to show me he doesn’t gamble anymore. And I know exactly how he behaves when he’s not gambling and when he is. So far it’s been two days and I know he hasn’t played. I can see he’s trying, but he gets urges at least 15 times a day he told me. He needs to try hard otherwise I hope he did take it serious I will be leaving him next time. I wish I know how to support him with staying out of gambling. I know it will be hard. And I know it’s surprising I’m still with him willing to support him after all he’s done to me but I can see in him lots of potential to be successful if only he fights it right. For now I have put all my attention towards him and I’m a little bit unsure if I can start again looking after myself, so that he doesn’t feel left out.
