Thank you TTA and Nick
I guess we all have our own story to tell – it’s hard to pinpoint how any of us ended up where we did, but I do wish we hadn’t .
We are good people who did not deserve this – I guess bad things happen to good people .
Today I am not reflecting on the loss of money or time – but on the loss of opportunity .
I watch as others enjoy the status and financial rewards of doing the role I could have had- if i had not been too distracted by gambling . I can blame others , I can say my face didn’t fit , I can play the victim- but my focus was elsewhere .
Dragging myself to work after a night spent gambling is not the best way to “get ahead”.
What’s left for me to do is pick up the pieces and glue them back together – th pieces of so many parts of my life , and perhaps after several coats of fresh paint they will be like new .
Feeling regretful but aware
Day 24