Thank you. The thing is I really am conflicted. I don’t know if he is gambling. It used to not be unlikely if he worked overtime and fell asleep at the job. However, when the gambling got bad he began to lie and use it as an excuse. I wish there was a real way for me to know. I know I have to make the decision as to if I can trust him or not but my feelings keep changing. I did approach him about my feelings and he was actually very understanding. He said he gets why I would feel this way based on his track record and he’s sorry. Just still not sure if that is enough for me. I am helping him with managing and saving his paychecks which has been helping me trust him more but I feel like I’ll never know. It’s just a scary feeling and I don’t know how to deal with these emotions. Last night just felt too familiar in a bad way. He said he’s going to try and be more mindful of my fears. I would love to join a live group session but I work during the times of them. Hopefully I can join one soon!
