Thank you, kpat,
Today is a new day. It feels a lot like a Day 1, even though I didn’t gamble yesterday. I learned a lot yesterday. I was prepared to dig in after my trip and to continue with recovery and not gambling. What I wasn’t prepared for was how strongly I wanted to go and how disappointed I was that I wasn’t able to and how angry I was. Which I took out on my husband. Which wasn’t right at all. I am very disappointed in myself.
Today, things are strained, but we are both being nice to each other, as we both said things we regret. Today will be spent picking up the pieces of a shattered day.
I deleted what I said about him here last night because it simply wasn’t true. Well, maybe it was a little true. lol Still, I regret writing it, and I am grateful for the delete button, which is what I would like to do with yesterday…just delete it!
