[Trish1966]

Thank you k

you are so right and your words have made me think about all the things I could be doing, friends I could be meeting for coffee etc

I am going to write a list tonight all the things I can occupy my thoughts when my pay hits my account and I convince myself that I can afford it but really I can’t afford it financially or emotionally

i will block that last site as I know what will happen and I know how I will feel afterwards 

thank you 

trish