Thank you for the support! Yes the guilt regarding my young child is a HORRIBLE feeling! Good for you for taking all of those measures. I haven’t gambled since my post. The real test is when I get paid again. My husband and I did a budget together for my next pay check. After all the bills are paid there will still quite a bit of money left. He mentioned all the things we should do with it like start paying off credit card debt from YEARS ago (my credit is horrible), double the car payment, pay off student loans etc….but thinking about all of that and figuring out who I owe what and how much is just too stressful for me right now but I’m hoping I’ll be able to sort it all out sooner than later. Part of me just wants to spend it on me…I haven’t bought myself anything nice in the past 2 years because every extra dime I’ve had went to the casino. Is that selfish! I don’t know ! Saving money probably be the best idea but I’m honestly scared that if we build up a lump Sum of money, I will eventually just gamble it all a way somehow or some way. Either way, I’m trying to stay positive and proud of myself for being on here and taking in all the love and support .
