Thank you guys for your responses. To be honest I was scared that no one would reply to me.
You have shared some great advice and I have happily taken it on board.
My husband and I decided last night that it was for the best if he took over the household bills which will definitely reduce the amount of money that I have in my possession.
The only people who know about my addiction are my husband, my mum and my sister. My sister has been my rock. After reading your comments I think it might be a good idea to give her my bank card. My husband leaves for work at 5am and isn’t back home until 7pm so for him to have my bank card wouldn’t be practical as with kids there is always something that they need and then she can access the money.
I think I will sit down today when I get 5 mins peace and write a list of small goals and reward myself each time I reach one. I am hoping this is me well and truly on the road to recover. And thank you so much for taking the time to read my post and respond. It means a lot