thank you so much for this post, I am working the night shift so I have had some time to read over some of your posts where you have shared your journey, it’s difficult to be aware of what you are doing, sometimes why, you can fight every hurdle and be so resourceful to find that little extra bit of money for gambling yet its so hard to walk away. I have realised that although the losing brings me to my knees, it makes me push away every single person that may want to spend time with me as this is interfering with my gambling time it’s actually the winning that is the worst part of gambling, the winning makes us stay and when we are losing, we keep throwing more and more money, we have won before so we believe it is only a matter of time until those endorphins are pumped through are veins. A year is amazing and people like you give people like me hope that we just need to keep trying until we get it right, does it get easier with time or do you always feel that battle within yourself? just hearing about you focusing on shopping and baking for the family and enjoying your life is so wonderful
