Hi Laura, Thank you for the compliments!
I would like to continue to be honest about one thing; the on going struggles in my life and recovery.
My addiction has manifested in all areas of my life. The thorn remain in my flesh, how naïve of me to think that I do not have this problem anymore.
1.Stop digging the hole
I have lost control of my overeating and put on 3 to 4 kg very quickly recently…at this pace, I was afraid to regain 10 kg back.
I manage to made a decision to return to the program and practice my one meal a day low carb, zero sugar diet.
2. Still hopeful in recovery
It took only 3 days for me to lose 3kg in water weight.
3. Distraction vs Focus
Today I receive a phone call to attend a job interview and all of a sudden my priority have shifted to the job interview.
I gradually become powerless and struggle to stay focus in my diet. My priority have shifted away from the diet, and I slipped, I should not have order the food I ate today.
There are so many temptations and distraction in life everyday. I continue to struggle and remain an imperfect person despite trying to stay on the right track in recovery.
I shall keep on trying until my last breathe! Trying to deny my desires, giving up doing what I love…
Without God giving me the wisdom and strength to do it. Just depending or relying on my own will and strength, I have fail time and time again.
Today I realize how my priority can change suddenly anytime just like the weather. This explain the struggle I face in staying focus to remain gamble free. Feeling in control one moment and totally out of control in the next.