(((Sweet Pea))) you are probably tired as you could not sleep and everything seems worse when we are sleep deprived. It is tough to push ourselves to do things sometimes, and I am the best procrastinator in the world, except when I should procrastinate and not play machines. I think it was either Larry or Geordie that made a comment to me after I had posted about being a procrastinator that I should use that for placing my next bet. I do have times that I want to gamble. In fact just yesterday when I was out driving my mind went to the machines. I had money in my wallet and I visualized putting money in a machine and I could feel the excitement, and I thought I could may be go once. How we lie to ourselves as I know going once is not an option for me. I thought I may win some money, again I know I would not be a winner as I would feed it all back in. I thank God that I got my mind thinking differently and did not go. It is something we have to be on our guard for at all times. It hurts so much after we have some gamble free time behind us and we have a relapse. The gambling hangover is awful and our mind is continually wanting to take us back to gamble. You are going through a terrible time P, but you are getting through it. Keep your head up and look forward not backwards because you are not going that way!!!! I wish I could take some of the hurt away from you, but you know it will get easier!!!! One day at a time (((P)))
