I was not mindful of this problem until recently, I found out that I could never stay contented with comfort for too long, I was always trying to seek changes and do a little more each time. It was just a habitual thing.
The same habit that has made me a better saleperson when I was young has become the main cause of my self-destruction later in life.
The current new stress-free job was helping me stay abstinent with ease in recovery, yet I wanted to do more and so I went on a diet at the same time.
I thought it was harmless, but it was not. I didn’t know that I was adding stress to my life until it became a burden and great discomfort. The stree free life was gone in 5 days after I went on a strict no carbohydrates and no sugar diet. I feel that I have change from a positive and happy person to become negative and depress.
I realize something was very wrong and made some adjustment; I didn’t change the stress-free work but I change my diet to an easier one. I tried intermittent fasting, I take only one meal a day and things is looking bright again.
I am still very much work in progress…