Been visiting this site every day since i joined 2 days ago. Iv read some good stories and some bad. I have all the same thoughts and emotions as everyone here looking for help. Such a crazy addiction, some times i think i am reading fiction and that the tragic events of peoples lives cannot be real, then i pause and think on different levels i am just the same. I read all these stories of relapses thinking, you know what i am stronger, i am able to do this, im different, and yet in the back of my mind at certain stages in the day i think sure what would it hurt just one last time to put another bet on.
Insanity, madness, and im not going to put myself through it again. I read a post today from someone who has been gamble free for nearly 4 years, is enjoying life and does not let it define life. I will get there and there is no room here for a relapse. I would like to post an inspiring last message in a few years (relapse free) and give someone else the same hope and inspiration.