[lizbeth4]

I’m forcing myself to attend our HOA meeting this morning. I haven’t been in the 4 1/2 years that I’ve lived here. Guess what? It’s at the library!! I feel so distant and disconnected from everyone. The heat is bearable but a little stifling for a few hours in the afternoon. My Mother hasn’t been very inviting about me coming to her house???? So I’ve decided to just stay home. The A.C. equipment will be here on Tuesday or Wednesday. I can do this!! My GA Meeting went ok. I have a few phone numbers to call if I need support. No counseling till next week. I’m not myself right now. I’m mentally tired and drained and honestly I just wish all of this pain was over. I’m looking for the hope but having a hard time finding it.