Hi I thought your other thread would have received some replies by now, I’ve noticed that the forums can go quiet from time-to time.
Although my gambling experiences started off on the arcade slot machines many years ago, I wasn’t predominantly a slots player. Most people currently posting in this forum are so maybe they’re better placed to offer you some support. I believe that although different CG’s (compulsive gamblers), get hooked on different types of gambling that it is still the same problem, and although we’re all unique individuals with unique circumstances and different sets of reasons for starting gambling there are a lot of common denominators. And I think it makes sense that the main-stays of every one’s recovery should be along similar lines.
Sounds like your problem is way out of control. GA might be worth the 30 minute drive, another person on the forum recently wrote about her 2 hour drive to her nearest meeting and how she was pleased about making the effort.
Although it feels like the end of the world it really isn’t. The thing is though it is an uphill struggle to begin with and if you’re not going to tell your husband or get to GA then you aren’t giving yourself the best opportunity, (in my opinion).
You’ve said you’ve unsuccessfully tried to stop on a few occasions it’s not suprising that if you just keep doing the same things it’s probable you’ll just keep getting the same outcome. My support would be along the lines of advocating complete honesty with your husband, I promise you he will more than likely come to terms with the severity of your gambling a lot easier than the fact you’ve covered it up for so long.
The only reason I was able to stop gambling was by stopping being dishonest, it’s working for me I havnt gambled in about 18 months, my last bet a lottery ticket. It was very hard, I’d lied for many years to most people, especially myself, about most things, especially my gambling.
I know some of the slots players don’t agree with my views on recovery, especially where being completely honest is concerned, so that’s why I think they might be better placed to offer you some better constructive support than simply just telling your husband and going to GA.
Keep posting, you will get replies